it's weird to think that if i had done things differently, maybe even the normal way, i would have been graduating this week. But instead i am looking at about a year and a half more of school give or take a semester. sometimes i feel like i am never going to finish. every once in a while i think back and if i could do it all over again i would probably would have gone to some two year design school or something like that. but i don't regret anything. God has graced me with so many experiences and memories, trials and errors, upbeats and beat-downs. the path i am taking, although seemingly long and financially draining, i believe to be a path i could have never dreamed up myself. i know that God has a plan for me and i know that God's plan is at work now. not tomorrow, not ten years from now, but something i am currently stumbling through. i don't see past mistakes as regrets but as an experience. something to learn from. i try not to worry to much about the future. i know the decisions i make today effect tomorrow, but you know what? i'm sure there are going to be some decisions to be made tomorrow also. i guess what i am trying to say is that you can't plan too far ahead. i've changed majors three times now and i have to say that the further i've gone in life the better it has gotten. despite all my mistakes. it's by God's grace that i am here.
so i am not graduating this year. so what. i love school. i really feel sorry for all the kids who are just doing it to get through. what a sucky way to enter the "real world."
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