off to houston for the next week. hopefully i'll have some good pics of the trip. catch ya on the flip side.

i lost myself in the summer rain...
 
the sky has that weird greenish orange glow to it.  it's pouring rain now.  i'm sitting here at the computer compiling worships songs for a mission trip to houston next week and i reek of espresso.  i'm excited about going on the trip.   there will only be about sixteen or seventeen of us going which will be a nice change from the usual sixty to seventy.  not sure what we will be doing but i'm sure it we be good for all of us.  i've been interested in doing inner-city work for a while now.   

i'm sleeping on a really cool futon now. i still can't believe my little sister is getting married.    the evening cd is really good.  can someone be pro-human and pro-choice at the same time?  deconstruction is a very interesting concept.  trying to pre-plan a worship set is hard for me to do.  especially a weeks worth. 

now the sky has turned a light purple. 

well, this guy at work officially quit so that now brings the guy/girl ratio to a wonderful 2:10.  to make things worse there is already a pretty strong "us verses them" mentality that i don't really care for.  my boss, who is a chick, told me the other day that she likes to blame things on the guys at work because the girls will cry if you try to do that to them.  i don't know about you but getting blamed for everything, even jokingly, gets kind of old after awhile.  i think that's why this other guy quit.  i'm enjoying the job but sometimes the people there are hard to work with. 

blah, blah, blah.... 
 
just got back from seeing the bourne supremacy and now i am waiting for a fellow partner at starbucks to close up shop so he can turn the keys over to me.  i got some time so i think i'll blog. 

i would love to talk about the show i saw last night at trees but it seems like i always talk about the shows i see.  however, the brief is: look for Radiant and Evening, these guys are good.  Ratatat i think are two brothers who where home schooled so they spent most of their time looping drum tracks and playing guitars along with it.  made for a pretty cool club atmosphere but it got a little old.  Someone said that Sorta sounded like Wilco.  I think the band would do well out in lubbock, but it's music like that that made me leave lubbock.  The Paper Chase made me smile.  i don't think their keyboard player ever had one lesson.  And the Killers ended the night with some tunes worth listening to.  that's all i got.

my family decided not to move.  i decision i am very pleased with.  it was just not worth it.  so now i don't have to vacuum my room every other day. 

funny story... a friend called me out of the blue the other day.  she was at school and some of her friends where talking about this guy they saw at chipotle.  apparently he was attempting to eat his burrito when it busted open spilling it contents on the floor.  my "friend" had called me to see if the person her friends where talking about in their story was me because she thought that was  something that would happen to me.  ok, like i said before this was a call out of the blue.  i hardly talk to her so i am not really sure what to think about the whole conversation on the phone.  i'm sure it was innocent enough but... the thought running through my head was "you never call me and when you do you are asking me if i was the guy who spilt a burrito in his lap because that situation reminded you of me."  i hate wrong impressions. 

well i got to go get some keys...

these words mean nothing to me anymore

so despite what the title of the store may entail, Bed Bath and Beyond sells neither beds nor bathes, and in a last ditch effort to find the beyond i ran into the back wall.

all i really want is a futon.

i've been so uninspired

this week has really been a tough one. maybe one that has allowed too much time for thought. that's it, i've been thinking too much.

yesterday i couldn't handle living at home with my parents. i couldn't handle this whole trying to sell our house, always having to keep my room perfect process. i couldn't handle the fact that i am 23, about to go into my fifth year of college, and i still have no idea what i want to do with the rest of my life. i couldn't handle feeling like my life is in limbo.

so i drove to dallas. first i stopped off at my school and took care of some financial stuff. then i went into deep ellum to get some wooden plugs put in my ears. then i drove up to urban outfitters and bought some plain t-shirts and a pair of pants. i cruised down mockingbird lane to look at all the different houses (we have track homes where i come from) and also to wait out the traffic on 35. i got home a little after dinner time feeling better but nowhere near where i would like to be.

i am really struggling with being the change i want to see.